I'll have to say this has been a rough week. Around 5pm Wednesday night I get a phone call that a dear friend of mine has shot herself in the head and is being rushed to UK. I immediately get sick to my stomach and my head starts to hurt as I start frantically calling mutual friends in the hopes of finding out it is all a mistake. It wasn't, but the good news is that she will live. At this time we don't know why she did it...what had made her so desperate that she felt this was her only way out? What is so bad that a person forgets the good things she has...3 beautiful children, a good husband, strong family ties. She has always been such a strong person that I never would have believed she would do this. Do we all have that breaking point in us that we could turn to something so extreme? I hope not.
Today at school I see two coworkers rushing to the side of another in her time of need...when I was in that position 8 years ago this friend was the one who stood strong beside me. She visited me in the hospital...brought me food while I was on bedrest and called to check on me when I came home. It's horrible to think that now that she needs someone there is nothing I can do for her. There were three of us that worked together and were very close...now the two of us are struggling to figure out what went wrong. I'm trying to be strong for my other friend but I have so many questions that I just can't sort out in my head...she does too and I guess we will have to realize we may never know exactly what happened. We both feel so helpless thinking about the desperation our dear friend felt Wednesday afternoon and that she didn't feel she had anywhere to turn.
At this point all I can do is say a prayer for her family and the hope that she will recover from her wounds, physical and mental. I hope she knows that she has so many people that care about her and will be here for her when she comes home.
Friday, September 26, 2008
A More Serious Note
Posted by Sarabox at 10:55 PM
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i'm so sorry, christina, i had no idea. you can do something for her though, you can just be her friend. even though you don't know if that will help, letting her know that you are still her constant will be a big help. an action like that is a desperate plea for help, i guess. who knows why some people think that's the only place to turn....i think many times they just don't know what else to do and honestly, they really don't know what they're doing. i guess the only way we can make sense of it is to understand she is ill. you are a good friend and i'm sure you'll do all you can to continue to support her and love her. :)
I agree with Summer. Sometimes just knowing someone cares translates a huge message of love even when your physical presence can't be seen. Tell her your praying for her and do it! Tell her how those old times meant so much to you. I would want to hear that.
Thank you both very much. Until yesterday we weren't allowed to talk to her (she was the hospital) but amazingly enough she was allowed to come home yesterday. She still isn't ready to talk to anyone and won't take phone calls but her husband is passing along to her that we love her and are here when she needs us. It's amazing to me that it happened one week ago tonight and that she is home again.
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